Dear Zachary,

As I sit here today thinking about "the day from hell" I have had, it makes you wonder....what if...What if you could take a bad day and tie it into all of the other bad days you have had in the past? If you could suffer that much in a day just to have the one thing that matters the most to you ,would you do it? Zach, I know my bad days seem trivial compared to what your mom and dad are going through. It seems very selfish at times to say to someone,"boy you wouldn't believe the day I have had!" I can only imagine what it must be like to walk a day in your parents shoes and as selfish as it seems, I wouldn't want to. If the rest of the world were being honest, they would say the same thing!! But what I do know is that your mom and dad would suffer all of their "bad days" all in one day just to have YOU back. I would too! It just makes you think...did I really have that bad of a day today?? I LOVE YOU LIL' GUY!!

Aunt Denise

Dear Zachary,

Well Zach I am trying my hardest to get the word out about your website and blog. I hope your friends have the opportunity to post their feelings, I think it will be good for them. While making your slide show it suddenly dawned on me....You sure were a handsome little bugger!! It also got me thinking about one of our last trips together. Remember when we went down to Aunt Theresas and you just had to go shopping (Gee, go figure...you shopping!) I was so amazed at the bathrooms in the mall. They had nifty lil' knobs on their water faucets and I made you take your camera phone in and get a picture. I really wish I could get ahold of that picture!! It tears me to pieces to know that you and I were not that close when you were growing up. The simple fact that we were only 15 miles away makes it even harder to deal with. Just when we started to connect, you were gone. I know in my heart of hearts that you are not angry with us for not spending more time, but it doesn't make it any better. But, just knowing that we had a blast when we did spend time together makes it a little easier to deal with. Uncle Jake is doing his best to put on a good front for others, but you and I both know that's not the truth. He had a really hard time at the cemetary on Sunday but he shuts down and won't talk about it. Maybe you could whisper a lil' something to help him get by. I better get going for now, I have a few more things to do on your website. I'm sure I will write again tonight when things calm down.

XOXOXO

Aunt Denise

Dear Zachary,

We had family Christmas at Aunt June's house last Saturday. Your sister really lives up to her name (Shredder!) She didn't want to play with her toys, she wanted Jo Jo's. I love watching her tear into stuff!! Taylor is getting so big!! Aunt Theresa bought Taylor & Shredder matching outfits, but they seemed a lil' too snug. Taylor's nickname is pudgie! Hard to believe she is 6 months old already. We went to the cemetary on Sunday morning and hung ornaments on your Christmas Tree. I'm sure you know already, but how come you didn't ask the big guy upstairs to send down some heat?? It was freezing!! I am working hard on your website but I am not sure if it is the right time to show your mom yet. Could you ask the big guy to squeeze her a little tighter? She really needs it right now. We are trying really hard to smother her and to not let her be alone for too long but sometimes I am not sure if that is even enough. I better get going so I can finish your website. I love you and miss you!!



Aunt Denise