Today's forcast.....calm!

So as you know, there I was driving to Bellaire last night on the crappiest roads known to man!! 20 miles an hour and white knuckles all the way. When suddenly, a calm washed over me. There was a voice in my head saying" I can do this" I love it when you are in my head!! No matter what I am doing and how hard it is for me, you are there. I can FEEL it! It just makes things that much more simple when you can face life with the attitude of, "YES, I CAN DO THIS!" But believe me, if I didn't feel your presence everyday, I wouldn't be able to say, "Yes I can"! I think the same thing applies to everyone around that knew you. That's what happens when you touch someones life!! It's FOREVER!! You're not there one minute and then the next minute gone! You are here always!! Now don't get me worng, I am NOT going to make it a habit of driving in that crap!! But, if I have to, I know you will be there and that makes ALL THE DIFERENCE IN THE WORLD!!! Peace out LIl Man!!

Forgot to stop and smell the roses....

Hey Lil' Man....So you know the old expression, "Stop and smell the roses"? Well you would think I would know how important that really is, but sadly, I forgot. It took someone very special to remind me ( you know who they are!!) and I am so glad they did. I have been so busy worrying about my own problems that I haven't slowed down for 2 seconds to see how my decisions would affect others. I haven't written to you in SOOO long and for that I am deeply sorry. I also accidently cancelled my websites not knowing that it, in turn, deleted your memorial site. But, I am happy to say that it is back up and will be fully functional with new features by the weekend. I think of you everyday when I am not running around like a chicken with my head cut off!! But there are others that continue to run around like chickens so they don't have to think, remember, relive......we both know that this is not the answer and I pray that you will put your lil' arms around each and every one of them and let them know that it IS ok to do all of that. We NEED to do that to help heal. This would have been a huge year for you, but I can at least tell you that I am proud of you and what you have accomplished in your short time with us!! You have already made us SOOO PROUD!! I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU!!!!

From Tamika With Love

This poem was written by Zach's cousin Tamika. I am sure Zach is squeezing just a lil' tighter each day! May you find comfort and strength not only in the memories you shared with Zach, but in your family and friends around you too:) We love you girl!



WHY
Why'd you have to leave?
Why'd you have to go?
Why'd they let you take your drivers ed test in the snow?

I mean you left so quick, I didn't have a chance to say goodbye
now every time I think about you all I do is cry.

I miss you so much all I do is reminisce
times haven't been the same without you ever since

You died instantly not even ten seconds more and you were dead
I can still remember the exact words my mother said

She said "Mika he's gone he was in a car accident and died"
all night long I sat up in my bed laughed about times and cried.

The last time we were together we were in your room messing with people on the internet
I can still see you sitting there laughing at all the things I said to your friends
but now that I think about it you were not only my favorite cousin, but my best friend.

Tamika

To All Of Zach's Friends....

I'm sure I speak for the whole family when I say THANK YOU! Thank you for calling Zach "Shorty" as we used to call him the same thing:) Thank you for your friendship with him as I know he had alot of friends and he thought very highly of all of you! Thank you for sharing your memories with all of us, as we need them all! But most importantly....THANK YOU for holding him tightly in your hearts each and everyday. He was very lucky to have friends like you! Just remember that when the days seem to drag on and your troubles seem to get you down just know that he is holding you close and he will never let go until he knows that you are going to be ok. That's the only thing I am certain about these days and I hope it helps get you through as it helps me each and everyday:) GOB BLESS YOU & THANK YOU ALL!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIL' MAN!

I can't even imagine what your mom must be going through today but I know in my heart of hearts that you are with her! Tabby had the right idea about the shirts and everyone I know will be "sporting" them around today. Uncle Jake misses you a great deal even though he can't bring himself to write his thoughts (But I'm sure you know that already! I believe you have been sqeezing him extra tight lately and I thank you) To be honest, I am really at a lost for words right now. I will try to write again later tonight. HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!

A Prayer To Help You Through

For those who suffer,
and those who cry this night,
give them repose, Lord;
a pause in their burdens.
Let there be minutes
where they experience peace,
not of man
but of angels.
Love them, Lord,
when others cannot.
Hold them, Lord,
when we fail with human arms.
Hear their prayers
and give them the ability to hear You back
in whatever language they best understand

A Poem For The Grieving

Don't Think of Him As Gone Away


Don't think of him as gone away-- his journey's just begun; life holds so many facets--this earth is only one.
Just think of him as resting from the sorrows and tears,
in a place of warmth and comfort where there are no days and years.
Think how he must be wishing that we could know, today, how nothing but our sadness can really pass away.
And think of him living in the hearts of those he touched...for nothing loved is ever lost--and he was loved so much.