Dear Zachary,

Well, only a week until your birthday. Hard to believe you would have been 16 already! I know I don't have to tell you that this is a very difficult time for the whole family. Your mom seems to be doing ok but, as it will be for quite a while, there will be good days and bad days and, in the case of next week, don't want to get out of bed days. Shine down on us Zach and help to make those really bad days a little easier to manage. We are trying our best to be around as much as possible so she doesn't have time to think about everything. We have even decided to go back to Florida this year ,which we are very excited about! I know when we get there it may be a different story. It's funny how you never really think of every little thing triggering memories. Whether it be a song, a smell, or an action. Sometimes trying to get your mind off of things won't work as there are things around that will always trigger some kind of memory. I hate to say it, but I am really worried about this trip. I know we are all saying, "It's going to be so much fun" and "Can't wait to get there" but, I KNOW it will trigger huge memories for me and it scares me. But I do know that you are going to be there every step of the way and that brings all the comfort I will need. I Love You and Miss You!! I will write later this week, as I have a lot I want to share with you:)



Love,
Aunt Denise